Live and learn

I don't know how do I keep up with this. I don't know why do I keep up with this. I just want this to end. My tears just don't stop, I can't even justify why I am crying. Each and every moment I tell myself that everything is fine putting her in front of my eyes. How I wish she had not gone that far. How I wish she was with me right now. How much I yearn for her touch, that reassuring warmth that made my world happy. She had literally lifted me to a higher level, I couldn't just leave her like that. My head is exploding, I have been ill for three days now. My parents have not said a word about our discussion that day. But I know that they eagerly wait. I just can't decide what to do. After taking so much from her I just can't let her go. I'll die. I just can't survive. She is my life. If I am alive today, it's because of her. I can't breakup with her. No, I can't be so selfish. She deserves better than that. I haven't given her anyth...

It's been a long time since we knew each other. I don't know when a simple friendship grew so deep that it turned into love. When, where, why, and how? I have no idea. I never wanted this to happen but there was nothing I could do to stop it. She knew that I was suffering, she knew that I won't be there with her for a long time and yet I just fell in love with her. I still remember, the day she told me about her feelings, it was a Saturday, speaking of it brings that very moment right in front of my eyes. I had just said that I felt the same same for her when something struck me, I had to warn her. "We do have feelings for each other, but I don't think it will work well." "But, why do you say so?" She said with a pained look on her face. I couldn't look at her like that. But I couldn't just leave it at that. "Well you see, my diabetes had reached the third stage and my situation is worsening..." "That is alright, you will be f...