I don't know how do I keep up with this. I don't know why do I keep up with this. I just want this to end. My tears just don't stop, I can't even justify why I am crying. Each and every moment I tell myself that everything is fine putting her in front of my eyes. How I wish she had not gone that far. How I wish she was with me right now. How much I yearn for her touch, that reassuring warmth that made my world happy. She had literally lifted me to a higher level, I couldn't just leave her like that. My head is exploding, I have been ill for three days now. My parents have not said a word about our discussion that day. But I know that they eagerly wait. I just can't decide what to do. After taking so much from her I just can't let her go. I'll die. I just can't survive. She is my life. If I am alive today, it's because of her. I can't breakup with her. No, I can't be so selfish. She deserves better than that. I haven't given her anything, nor will I ever be able to. She would probably be better off with someone who could take better care of her. I must let her go. It will be for her own good. And moreover, I'll let her go, because I love her. But no, I can't, how can I let go of something so dear to me. But I cannot let such a sentiment spoil her life. She will suffer less if I leave her now compared to, if something happens to me and she comes to know about it. "AAAARGGH!!"... this mighty battle is tearing me apart from limb to limb!! I cannot take it. My condition is worsening, even though the doctor says that I'll be well in no time. I know my body. It is responding to this inner conflict. Never in my life have I faced such a conflict there is no solution to it. I cannot decide what to do. I love her too much to let her go. But not letting her go would be selfish. I must come to a decision before it becomes too late. My limbs feel weak. My head crowded. Every moment I think of her. I just cannot stand this anymore. This stress is killing me. I wish you were here. I wish you said something. I wish you could help me arrive at a conclusion. Picturing her in front of me I try to ask her. But she gives no reply. We talk daily but I cannot ask her directly as she will freak out for sure. I don't know how to solve this. I can see her crying in front if me, asking me as to why I did this and me standing there as if I had been stoned. I have no reply for her.
Hey guys, we meet again after a long break. Yea I would give the credit to my laziness and expertise in procrastination. But today I want to write something that aims at the Indian readers. Don't worry it's more or less general so don't think that you need to be Indian to read it. This time I want to talk about brain. Yes a bit of psychology I guess, but no complicated terms or data, I promise. So I was going though these articles talking about some mental disorders and their symptoms, I found it really interesting. Surprisingly I could spot people showing many symptoms and yet going about normally. This is what made me think, since when did people, in the land where the basics of mind and body were established, become so weak? Spending some time thinking about it made me realise a few things. Again, these are solely my thoughts, so you are free to think for yourself. It's a well established fact that in the earlier ages, this land thrived with people who had conque...
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