To all my friends. :)

I never wanted this day to come,

I would have loved to avoid it and run.

But this confession had to come someday,

there was no escaping it any way. 

Many ask me why I laugh so much,

most of them consider me mad as such.

I have no problem in being called mad,

but this self introspection makes me sad.

So today I tell you what you will never find,

it is about me that you must keep in mind.

Because I do not want you to misunderstand,

and generalize these lines that I write with my hand,

I have many friends and they stay with me,

but what they have got into they never see.

The reason why I laugh is just to mask,

the infinite pain and sorrow so that you never ask.

Because reasons ,I shall fail to give,

so I ask you to kindly forgive.

This so called friend of yours,

gives you a chance to walk out right through the doors.

To take a path that leads away from me,

and escape from this stormy sea.

This endless, dark and gloomy well,

is the result of my deeds as you can tell.

Disappointing most of the people around,

these are my deeds to which I am bound.

The weight of my sins weighs me down,

but I try my best not to drown. 

The only thing I can do is pass through all this pain,

and if you come with me there is nothing you will gain.

I think a poem is just too small,

for me to put my thoughts in front of all.

If there is any help you need just ask,

I shall try my best to complete the task.

Saying this I shall bring it to a close,

the first part of this reality dose. 

                                        Bhabesh Rath